Letter #375:
Dear Future Boyfriend,
Warmest greeting from me, how you doing?
I still don’t know where you are or if we’ve already met before, or did our paths already crossed? I really don’t have any idea on my mind, but I just want you to know that where ever you are right now, please take care of yourself, so that in the near future, fate might give us the chance that were waiting for to happen.
Hey future boyfriend, you know what? I want you to know that I’m not that kind of typical girlfriend you’ll know in your entire life. I’m a one of a kind girlfriend that you might have. Mind you, I’m not a girlfriend material too. Too good to be true? I know right.
Future boyfriend, first of all, I want to let you know the simple things about me, like how I look every day, how I spend my free time, I’ll let you know everything about me. I’m a kind of girl who wears anything that makes me feel comfortable, I always wear round neck and v neck shirts, ¾ or long sleeves, everything that will cover my shoulder. I hate wearing sleeveless because it will reveal my arms, I have big arms. Hahaha. I’m a kind of girl who loves to wear flat shoes/slippers/sandals, but still have pairs of stilettos for occasions. I’m a girl who can mix and match with my pants, skirts and shorts. I never put make ups unless it’s really SOP to put them on. I only combed my hair once, after I go out of the shower, I will comb it again if it’s really necessary to do that. I’m a girl who only puts lipstick also once, if it fades, then let it fade, I’m done with it. Too much information about me huh? I know.
About spending my free time? Hmm. I always spend my free time with my very very very best buddy, my beloved BED. I’d love to sleep. But of course when you arrive, that may change a little bit. We’ll see when we get there. And if I overslept, I watched movies that are romantic comedies or I must simply say chick flick movies. Hahaha. But you know what? I also enjoy watching action movies, yeah boy, but I’m definitely not a fan of horror movies. It scares the hell out of me.
Hey future boyfriend, still there? Keep on reading, we’re on our way, I’m not a girlfriend who will force you to bring me on a fine dining restaurant, not really my type. I’ll not enjoy everything when you bring me to that kind of restaurant. You know where will I enjoy? If you bring me to the place where we can eat freely, a very good example is eating at the streets, I mean eating street foods, that’s more romantic for me than eating at a fine dining restaurant. I’m not a girl who’s going to hide behind those demure attitudes, I act who I really am, so please understand. I don’t care what might other people say, but when I’m hungry I don’t really care with the bullshits in life. I eat like a guy and that’s it. Food and I are best buddies also. Hope you would understand. Diet is not on my list, but I’ll always say to you that ‘I promise, I’ll go on a diet soon’. Just in case please say “you look hot and sexy, don’t worry, I still love you just the way you are” aww. I know it’s cheesy tho.
You don’t have to give me flowers coz I’ll also refuse those flowers, you know why? It will just die, don’t worry, I’ll not get mad and I don’t really expect you to give me flowers. You don’t have to give me material things too, just stay beside me, it will do, and I’m a sentimental person, not a materialistic one.
Hey stop laughing, I’m not yet done! I may be a clumsy one, I may have a lots of mistakes, I may have a lot of flaws and imperfections, I may be a bipolar type, I may be a bossy type sometime, but at least I’m just showing the real me. I never pretended to be somebody else. Please still love me and accept me for who I am, Please don’t try to change me, please love me beyond my imperfections and flaws in life. Please love me without those doubts. Love me not because you’re lusting over me; love me because you love me.
Future boyfriend, please love me and don’t let me go; don’t make me think that choosing you was just another goddamn mistake. Please hug me when I’m feeling lost or if I’m exhausted after work, please send me long messages if you like talking to me or you just wanted to share stories to me. Please don’t ever compare me with other bitches out there. Please love me for who I am.
Hold on to me when I feel like giving up. Don’t let me go just because I said I need that fucking space. Don’t get tired of me, if I already get tired with everything. Please stay beside me even if I’m pushing you away (oh, I almost forgot to tell you, I’m a type of person who’s going to push other people away so I won’t get too much attached for the reason of ‘I just want to save my heart from too much pain’ pathetic right? I know.) Please take care of my heart. Am I that demanding future girlfriend for asking that much? L All I wanted is you to stay beside me whatever happens.
I can’t make promise that I’ll be a better future girlfriend, but I know I’ll do my best to love you more than what you’ve think, I may be like this, but once I let myself fall completely with someone, I make sure that loving him was my greatest happiness. I may be not that kind of cute and caring future girlfriend, but I have my own unique ways that I know that can make our relationship healthy and strong.
I know you are my superman, but maybe you’re still stuck on the laundry mat, washing you cape? Or maybe you’re still busy saving the world that’s why you still don’t have time to look for me, don’t worry I’ll always be your Lois Lane, and I’ll always be your kryptonite.
Hey am I talking too much? Yea I know I’m talkative and I blogged too much, I write everything I wanted to say. Hey. Hey. Future boyfriend, in case you’re reading this now, please write me back a letter.
With all my heart waiting for you,
Future Girlfriend <3
